Currently Listening In Your Honor By Foo Fighters see related

so somebody, a guy, from my past came back into my life yesterday. i really wasnt expecting it... go figure the timing is wrong. hes in LOVE with this girl, who i bet is gorgeous and i'll probably never have a chance with him.. so i began to write a song.... i dont care if nobody likes it, its mine and its my heart, and plus im just startin it

i won't allow myself to say i love you

cause sure enough, if i did i'd end up hurt

i had my chance and i blew it

i ended up hurt and alone anyways

you should be with me, but you're with her

you say she smiles like me

and even acts the same way

you say you even hope to marry her

i'm happy for you, that's all i can say

my chances are gone like dust in the wind

all i can do is hope and pray for

another guy like you someday

talkin on the phone with you

your the voice inside my head

my eyes fill with tears

when you tell me that

one day i'll be lucky enough

i'll be in love with somebody like you are

but what you don't know is

i already am....

I'm in JACKSON HOLE!!! SPRING BREAK! wohoo.... and bein the only girl with the geoup im going with isnt that bad either. im so stoked about being out here. the mountain is SICK! the only down side, since were not in Colorado, were not near the Air Force Academy, so no hott guys who normally wear uniforms. We just got here yesterday, so not a hookup yet. i'm giong out to the town tonight, so hopefully i;ll find some hott ski guys. omg, so why im inside and its sooo beautiful out there.. i decided that i wanted to be a show off with the guys so i was skiing so fast, then totally crashed. my ankle and like the tendons are killer! o well, still have a few more days... well i guess im out.. here some pics of the mountiain and the pics from my party....

for more pics go to www.picturetrail.com/nautiquechick

the things i'm over....

* going to a school were nobody gets it

* my nails never lookin 100% awesome

* looking at my wakeboard and not bein able to be on it

* feeling so tired all the time

* feeling used by people

* being single, i wanna relationship that means something

* knowing that he is doing fine when he tore me up inside

* not being able to sleep at night

* TEACHERS

* rules that really mean nothing to me

* having to learn stuff in school that in 2 years will never matter

* still not being caught up in school

* my dog barking at the wind

* being single

* those girls in chorus class who just think theyre amazing.... and theyre not

* stressin over college

* being single

* knowing that my brother maynot come back home

* the scars that will never heal

* being so effing emo.. i swear i dont mean to be

.......

life in general....

i just wish i could runaway to the lake or the mountains. just wakeboard or ski non-stop. that would be the ultimate heaven! or move to africa and help people. life just seems so meaningless here. nothing ever makes sense. and im so tired. we missed our 6 o'clock flight and had to take on at 1 am colorado time, 3 am GA time, and we didnt get home until like 7 am GA time..... grrrrr.....